The wedding planning began. I wanted a vintage wedding full of mason jars, chalkboards, lanterns, DIY decorations, all tied into a winter wonderland. We decided on Zack’s church for the ceremony and they had just built their new youth building so it was empty and the perfect space for our many guests. It was all coming together so fast and so quickly. This was going to be such a quick time period for me and I wanted to soak in every detail. We had our engagement pictures taken and I picked my picture package for the wedding. I had both of our parents making guest lists because they would have to go out in a timely manner and since we didn’t have a lot of “time” it was something I dreaded and worried about the most. It was so hard to make sure everyone got an invite, if we had room in the church, the RSVP’s, etc. That was probably my least favorite part but all in all I had a great time with planning and the best help.
Then, I decided to make a wedding planning blog. I wasn’t a great blogger (still not) but it is fun to look back at those posts. I obviously didn’t finish everything on the blog but I am glad I am able to look back and reflect on those moments. We got a lot of the decorations picked out, invitations sent, bridesmaids dresses & grooms tuxes ordered, and then my dress. One of the most memorable moments of this whole wedding adventure was finding my dress with my Nana, Grand, Mom, Maid of Honor, and Best Friend.
As far as the pregnancy went, everything was going perfectly fine. I thank the Lord for watching over Paisley and I during the weeks of not knowing and knitting her into perfection. I continued my regular appointments and the baby was healthy. I am to this day so thankful for Paisley’s health. We decided on a name that I had picked out, Paisley, and on a middle name we chose Allyn. Allan is my dad’s middle name so we decided to spell it a little more “girlie.” This time was very difficult for me. I had so many questions. So many concerns. I knew I had Zack to talk to as well as my nurses and doctor but I needed my Mom. I was so scared about what might happen and about bringing a child into this world. Weather I made the right decision or not of telling her after the wedding, I was never more relieved to have my Mom there during the last weeks of my pregnancy.
It was the week of the wedding. My final few days to have everything together. I was to the point of if we didn’t have it done or haven’t bought what we needed, it just wasn’t going to happen. We started decorating on Thursday and I don’t know what I would have done without the help of our families and church family. The church was beginning to look like a wedding in a winter wonderland and I was giddy as ever. While they were decorating, I finished up packing my apartment and getting things taken care of for our future home in Harrah. Friday came and our rehearsal dinner began. I couldn’t believe it was finally here! It was wonderful. Zack’s parents provided us with a Mexican dinner that was fabulous. It is so nice to have both of our families together and that they get along. I know that a lot of couples are not so lucky.
As we finished up for the night, Zack went to have a guy’s night with his bachelor men and I went home with my parents and Maid of Honor. I needed beauty sleep. :) As I got ready for bed, I could help but think that this was the last time I would go to sleep as a single woman. I wasn’t just responsible or accountable for me, me and me. This would be the last time in “my room” in my parents’ house. My bed was gone (our bed now) my furniture was gone. My room was empty. A very bittersweet memory for me. I slept on the couch by the fire that night next to Bear and thought about everything. A new chapter was about to unfold and it was time to move on. This would always be here to come back to but I had to move on to God’s plan for my life with the amazing man he had blessed me with. I would get to live a dream, a fairy tale tomorrow. My Dad would get to walk me down the aisle to my husband and give me away as our friends and our family witnessed. I would gain another family that loved me and we would have a dream wedding. As I fell asleep after texting Zack goodnight, it was midnight on December 17, 2011. It was finally our Wedding Day.