The new school year had started and I was so excited and ready to get this semester over with.When I got home to my apartment after a long day of class and work, I planned on relaxing for the evening. After kicking off my shoes I heard a knock on the door. When I opened up all that was there was an envelope on my door step with a piece of paper that would put me on a scavenger hunt.
I was sent to about 5 different places, each of which had a new clue for me to travel to another destination. Finally, I arrived at the park where we would always go walking. He was standing on the island that jutted out into the lake. He had his hands in his pockets and the biggest smile on his face. That moment I knew I would have to answer one of the biggest questions in my life. The sunset was beautiful. The butterflies were fluttering and as he got down on one knee the tears started to flow. It was one of the most special moments of my life. I said YES to the man of my dreams. I will never forget that night. We had no idea what was ahead of us but we had each other and somehow that was all we would need. I immediately called my family and best friends who already knew what was happening. I was ecstatic! Let the wedding planning begin!
We came home on Friday to an engagement party with our friends and family to celebrate. We are so lucky and blessed with such amazing people. We planned the wedding for May 2012 so we could be finished with school for the summer and go on our honeymoon as well as find a place to move in. I could not wait to plan the ultimate Pinterest Wedding.” :) Every girls dream right?
After a couple of weeks of not feeling well. I had a doctor’s appointment I had blood tests ran because a lot of things just weren’t adding up. I had been down with what seemed flu like for two weeks and just couldn’t shake this sickness.
I visited the doctor’s office for blood tests 3-4 times within a week and a half and started to get very concerned. As the nurse came in to tell me some kind of results (hopefully) I wasn’t sure I wanted to know. I had that bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. She told me my white cell count was going out the roof and they were trying to figure out what was going on with me. As the words “well you have very strong symptoms and with your blood cell count so high we want to check things out further. It looks like symptoms of leukemia.”
The nurses said they wanted to send the next test off to the lab and they would call me back in a day or two. They said not to worry they just didn’t want to rule that possibility out without knowing for sure. As I left and got into my car I balled my eyes out. I had Zack come up so I could talk to him about all of this. It was like I was in a fog. I couldn’t process it all. That night I told him we should call the wedding off. At least for now-but he wouldn’t allow it. He was the only one that knew about the tests. I couldn’t tell my parents. I didn’t want to think about it anymore. I didn’t want to think about it until I knew for sure. I’ve never felt so helpless. So scared and afraid. I thought about what life might be with or without this next chapter. I didn’t know what to think anymore. One minute everything was so certain and now I was waiting on phone call.