Grandma Dorothy’s funeral was yesterday and it was beautiful. I think this Christmas was the toughest one my family has had to go through. Thursday morning Grandma was no longer with us. It was unexpected and the thing that has bothered me the most was the way she left us. I can’t help but think of all of the things I want to ask her now. All of the questions I have about her life and about canning and cooking. What hurts me the most is how I thought I had enough time with her.
As I sat in the pew and soaked kleenexs’ with tears, Papa preached her funeral. His message was beautiful and fitting, just the way Grandma would want it. One thing that has stuck with me since the service is that she is spending her first Christmas with Jesus. How amazing. Afterwards, we had her graveside service and buried her next to Grandpa. I am going to miss her so much.
On the way home it occurred to me:
Grandma was able to do anything she wanted to do. She could make the best pies, hunt, work cattle. She KNEW the Lord and loved him. She married. She was a beautiful person inside and out. She was tough.She got to have children of her own.
She got to have grand children of her own.
She got to attend her great granddaughter’s wedding.
And she got to spend time with her great great grandchild. She had five generations together with her. She lived a full life. She loved her family more than anything and I believe she got to do everything she wanted to. And with that I realize, I have nothing more to be sad about where Grandma is concerned. Nothing at all. Right now she is wrapped up in our Savior’s arms. I am snuggled on the couch with my little family in front of me and we are watching the snow fall outside. It is Paisley’s first Christmas and a white one at that and I feel like Grandma is with us today. I’ve thought about her all day. All of the memories I was able to make with her. All of the things she taught me that I can teach my daughter and hopefully my grand children and great grandchildren. I am at peace and I know she is in a better place. I know she is watching over us and I know she loves us.
Thank you all who attended her service yesterday, for all of the calls, the prayers, the messages. For everything.
Merry Christmas and I’ll be seeing you, Grandma.